I'm a P.K, so WHAT? seriously.

got home around 21.30 today and apparently i was wearing shorts + a top that was kinda long, it almost went over my shorts. thus, it nearly looked like i wasnt wearing anything under. so my grandma decided to greet me with

"hey! why are you wearing such short dresses?"
"eh? no. i'm wearing shorts, see?" i showed off my shorts,
"no, but you shouldn't ever wear something like that. you're the pastor's daughter!" sounding and looking as though i just came home from musical rehersals in a Bikini!

that short statement nearly made me go crazy there for a second, thank goodness i was able to cool off before anything bad happens.

i mean, my dad being a pastor doesn't have anything to do with what i am today, what i have decided to be, consciously or subconsciously. with what i wear what i do what i think what i study who i befrend, where i go, whatever in life i DO. if anything, it's all just about him being a Father, not a pastor. it's always been a father-daughter relationship and never a pastor-daughter one. i despise it so bloody much when people think i should act, dress, or think a certain way because i'm a pastor's kid. and somehow, even more when it's my grandparents. gah, it pisses me off!

i know my limits. as a human being, not as a pastor's kid.
i know how to properly dress. as a human being, not a pastor's kid.
i know what to eat and drink. not because my dad being a pastor requires me to eat what's written to be clean but because i have chosen to believe, as a human being, in what is written. not as a pastor's kid.
i pray and go to church not because my dad's a pastor. but because i have chosen to believe that doing such is a way of honoring and connecting to Him whom i have, as a human, chosen to believe in. not as a freaking pastor's kid!

i am as human as everbody else, capable of flaws as everyone else is, a potential rebel as everyone else is at heart (as long as Lucifer is concerned in this world). hell yes some other people may have set better examples than i, as a pastor's kid, but heck it's not like i care. it's very humane, very bloody normal to have somebody else be better than you at something.

so just stop all the shites about me being a pastor's kid. not even my dad sees me as that. he does not one bit question my sometimes provocative status on facebook. haha. he'll just know something's bothering me and check if i'm okay when he finds it necessary. and that's why i love him so much. that's exactly why he is the best. that's why i didn't mind approving his friend request on Facebook.

oh wait, i created his account!


UPDATE

P.S sorry for sounding a bit harsh. so much for having cooled off, eh? haha. peace